Live, Fuck, Cry, and Die

A Fucking Strange Short Time

February 8, 2025

It’s 7:30 in the morning, and I leave my apartment on Buakhao road to buy something from the 7-Eleven across the street.

I see a small spinner chick standing on the corner, wearing a low-cut dress.

I approach her oh-so-casually, trying not to appear creepy – which for me is not easy.

I forget exactly what I said, maybe something smooth like, “I go with you?”

Very quickly the topic of ST is raised, and she quotes me 4,000 baht.

WTF!

I say I can only pay 2,000 baht. She quickly agrees to settle for 2,500 baht.

What followed is pure weirdness.

I cannot take her to my apartment, which is less than a one-minute walk away – because I am too ashamed that the female maids and female front desk staff will see me with a young hooker.

Their first reaction would be astonishment, then big smiles and likely barely-suppressed smirks.

These respectable Thai ladies toiling in honest low-paying jobs would never look at me the same way again. Aha! We knew you were a dirty old farang grandpa after all!

So my little Thai fuckdoll and me hop on a motorbike to my favorite ST hotel – only a 5-minute ride away.

We go to check in and I get a shocker.

No vacancy. The hotel is full.

Fuck the goddamn tourists and the goddamn busy season!

Now what.

Another motobike ride down Buakhao to Jasmine Villa ST hotel, near the LK Metro entrance.

I’m feeling extremely uncomfortable during the ride, since I have to sit in the middle, with my chick behind me and the driver in front.

I am wedged so tightly, my soft dick is mashed against the driver’s body.

I just grit my teeth and bear this unwanted pressing of my dick against another man’s body, because I have no choice.

The fucking Jasmine Villa hotel entrance is locked! 

Too early for them. The front desk clerk is probably still sleeping inside.

Then another fucking motosai ride, down Skaw alley in Treetown to the cluster of ST hotels near Second Road.

All either closed or no vacancy.

Now what!

We then have to go to a 7-Eleven store to buy a phone charger, because her phone is dead.

Inside the store, she’s acting weird, making a fuss over something as the store clerks look at her in puzzlement.

She is not normal, I realize.

I start cringing in embarrassment, because the store clerks know I am with her.

This is the kind of half-crazy chick who attracts attention in public because of odd behavior.

Finally in desperation I decide to sneak her past the female staff at my apartment building.

Another motobike ride to my apt building, where we get dropped off.

But then I see the overnight clerk sitting right where we have to pass by to get to the elevators.

Even though the clerk sees me, I make an abrupt about-face and walk us back to the far corner of the building’s parking lot, out of sight.

Shit!

The spinner starts getting really irritable, claiming she had not slept all night and is tired of all this walking around. I end up handing her 500 baht for her to rent a room somewhere.

But then after more fuss and bother, and me knowing that I would not get to fuck her once she leaves my sight, I decide to risk humiliation.

In a desperate heroic attempt, I just finally wait until the female clerk’s back is turned, and sneak past her to the elevators.

Made it!

Once inside the building, I quickly walk the spinner up the stairway to the second floor, so the clerks cannot see us waiting for the elevator.

On the second floor, I press the button to go to my 4^th floor apartment.

The spinner suddenly says she is tired and fed up with all this walking and riding around — and sits down on the hallway floor.

I look down at her in amazed shock.

The fucking elevator doors are open.

All she has to do was get in, ride up two floors, and walk about 40 meters to my apartment.

She refuses, despite my calm encouragement.

Like a stubborn child she sits there, refusing to move.

I stare at her in disbelief. I’m suddenly tempted to just walk away.

But what if a maid spots her?

I pray to Buddha that no one emerges from their apartment to see this.

But she finally gets up.

I grab her arm firmly, all the way to my cramped studio apartment.

Finally, alone at last!

Let her be as weird as she wants.

No one can see us now.

Inside my apt, more weird babbling and mild erratic behavior continues.

She suggests that she live with me as a caretaker.

She says that since I live alone, I might die someday and no one will find my body until much later.

I agree, but laugh and tell her that if I die, I won’t care what happens to my body because I will be dead.

“My spirit will leave my body when I die,” I say. “My body is just a shell I leave behind. Who cares?”

Earlier, she had been very bothered when I told her I have no children and never married.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot, she had showed me slight red bruises on her lower thighs, saying a man had refused to pay her after ST, and beat her when she tried to collect her money.

I had no idea if her story was true or not, but just feel really sad.

The world’s suffering is a bottomless pit.

I find out she’s age 31, from Nakhon Pathom and has a son, age 7.

She also starts telling me she had been kicked out of her apartment because she couldn’t pay rent, and has monthly bills like paying for a car, and sending money back home to support her son.

She has about 15,000 baht in debts/bills that she has to pay monthly.

Damn, some people seem like they create their own trouble in life.

But who am I to talk?

The spinner readily agrees to fucking, and lays on the bed, stripping off her thong panties.

She agrees to let me massage her first,

She lays face down, and I straddle her thighs, and begin massaging her back.

Her torso is so skinny, I can feel her ribcage bones.

It feels somewhat weird, almost like massaging a skeleton.

I fleetingly think of death and dying – and what awaits me.

She has hideously gross lumpy breast implants that look unnatural and awful.

I’m unsure if I can get erect, because it’s early and I have not taken my Cialis pill.

But I miraculously get hard after she does a handjob and lightly sucks the tip of my dick.

I hurriedly slip on a condom, apply some lube, and get ready to finally fuck this weird-ass, half-nuts chick.

Then she does something that repulses me.

She lays back and spreads her legs wide, her pussy raised up obscenely. She looks at me wickedly while flicking out her tongue rapidly in a vulgar motion.

I feel disgust, but plunge forward with bulldog determination.

I shove my dick into her glory hole, quickly sliding in balls-deep rather easily.

We fuck.

I feel strangely sad while fucking her hard – a deep, hopeless despair.

So I gave up my chance for an innocent love beyond compare with the girl of my dreams, who I had stupidly walked away from in the Big C store – for this?

I’m getting what I deserve.

I chose this way to live out my dying days.

After we finish fucking, she is OK with me taking photos, so I get some good shots.